'Damaged' Kid Cudi books. himself into rehab for 'suicidal urges'

05 October 2016 - 13:21
By Tshisalive
Kid Cudi
Kid Cudi

US rapper Kid Cudi has checked himself into rehab to receive treatment for several mental conditions that has left him a “damaged human“.

An “ashamed” and apologetic Cudi took to Facebook on Tuesday to open up about his battles with anxiety‚ depression and suicidal thoughts.

Using his real name‚ Scott Mescudi‚ the rapper revealed that his mental condition had left him scared of leaving the house and “simply a damaged human swimming in a pool of emotions every day of my life“.

“I am not at peace. I haven’t been since you’ve known me. If I didn’t come here‚ I would’ve done something to myself. I simply am a damaged human swimming in a pool of emotions every day of my life. There’s a raging violent storm inside of my heart at all times. I don’t know what peace feels like. I don’t know how to relax. My anxiety and depression have ruled my life for as long as I can remember and I never leave the house because of it‚” he wrote.

The rapper went on to admit that he was not able to make new friends or have trusting relationships and so he was booking himself into rehab to try remedy the situation.

“I deserve to have peace. I deserve to be happy and smiling. Why not me? I guess I give so much of myself to others I forgot that I need to show myself some love too. I think I never really knew how. I’m scared‚ I’m sad‚ I feel like I let a lot of people down and again‚ I’m sorry. Its time I fix me. I’m nervous but I am going to get through this‚” he added.

And while the news might come as a shock to many fans‚ the rapper revealed that he hopes to return to the stage next month‚ “stronger‚ better and reborn“.

Fans have responded to the message‚ taking to social media to pray for the star.