This is the anguish of June Steenkamp, who is grappling with the pain of losing her daughter, 29-year-old model and lawyer Reeva.
In an emotional telephone interview from her Seaview, Port Elizabeth, home yesterday, Steenkamp spoke for the first time about her daughter's killing.
Reeva was allegedly shot dead by her boyfriend, athletics superstar Oscar Pistorius, on Valentine's Day, at his R4-million home at Silver Woods Country Estate in Pretoria. Pistorius, 26, has been in police custody since the killing. Speaking about the love her daughter had for South Africa and its citizens, Steenkamp said: "She loved like no one else could love.
"She had so much of herself to give and now all of it is gone. Just like that, she is gone ... in the blink of an eye and a single breath, the most beautiful person who ever lived is no longer here."
The state intends to charge Pistorius - who has not yet been asked to plead in court - with premeditated murder.
Pistorius's father, Henke, said the family was aware of the reality that they and their son were facing.
Lashing out at the way South Africans were "destroying" a "national icon", Pistorius, said: "There is something fundamentally wrong with our society. We build people up into heroes, who overcome immense challenges, only to take great glee in breaking them down ..."